dear cupid, 

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i did it again—i guess i lack the patience

forgive me but..

im just maintaining
and i heard love takes patience
but what if we have no time?

what if tomorrow is not in our skies, and we collapse from the very air around us?
can i trust you? can i trust your body? enough to sink the soles of our feet into the earth together?
i held up my head up and i talked to the sun

these are all the things she told me i should ask you
she said if you had all the answers then you weren’t the one
& that is what love is

love is a child—full of curiosity and always asking questions.
asking questions that you find solutions to together
questions that turn your stomach into their personal nightclub

questions that throw you in every direction possible before you find the right one
things become different, they are no longer gentle
you will no longer be able to love as smoothly as before but those things are meant to happen

was i made to be a safe haven?
a beacon of light for all my lovers—past and present
when God made me, did he intend for me to attract battered souls?
the way they stick to me you would think i was familiar to them

as if they know my soul in a past life..

as if i am already dead.
what if we are all dead?

what if we are all hollow inside?
what if our organs do not exist, and all that we are within is emptiness?

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what would you use my body for..?
if you did not have a heart..would you still love me?